Dear Ones,
I began this the end of December and due to personal difficulties I just found the draft and even if it's no longer the beginning of the new year, I mean it now as much as I meant it when I started this post on my blog so I'm posting it anyway, after the fact.So Happy New Year a little late &
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ*´¨`*♥ Love, Gentle Hugs & Prayers♥*´¨`*Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
Another year has passed and a new one has begun and with each new year usually comes resolutions that may or may not be kept. I stopped making resolutions when I realized that successful ones make me feel really good while the unsuccessful ones leave me feeling like a failure, which adds to my depression, which makes my pain worse, which makes me even more depressed and the cycle continues to run through my life in vicious circles so...I decided to stop making resolution but instead to just pray for God's guidance, healing, and wisdom to give me patience and awareness to get me through each day of the year, one moment at a time. My biggest challenge is to let go of me and let Him take my life in the direction He has planned. I know there will still be pain but if I listen to my body, which I believe is one way God tells me what I need to be doing to keep some normalcy in my life, I may be able to manage the pain in a way that I can still function in a more adequate way that gives me back some of my sense of accomplishment and self esteem.
Those of you who follow my blog, or stop by now and then, are vaguely aware that I suffer from many auto immune related diseases and disorders which in turn keep me in constant, though varying degrees, of pain and functionality. I have struggled this past year with some of the worst flares of my life with my Psoriasis, my PSA, my Fibromyalgia, and my Neuropathy. It's so easy for me to mention these few things when in reality there could be so many more syndromes & other illnesses in the conglomeration that are considered Invisible Disabilties. The worst part of all is the depression and anxiety and self imposed isolation from life in general. I am so nervous in new surroundings, around people I don't know, etc. all because my balance is so off kilter and I trip & stumble over nothing & have a hard time getting around, I have days when I can't think clearly and am very forgetful. I can't remember things that I knew yesterday and will probably know tomorrow but today I know nothing. :)
So instead of resolutions, here are my prayers for the year 2012. These are for my country, the U. S. A. but apply to every country around the world who's struggles are the same or similar difficulties in nature. My prayers are for everyone, in every corner of the globe.
- The Government will finally wake up & realize they MUST do what is BEST for the majority of our country's citizens who have been affected, the worst, by our economical crisis and not continuing to line the pockets of the wealthy. Charity begins at home!!! Take care of our jobless, homeless, starving, sick, men, women and children, first and work up from there. Wake up to the real world where most of us live & make it right.
- For cures or at least relief for illnesses that cause premature death or constant pain or both. I know this is really in God's hands and He does still do miracles but the mainstream medical is all about making money not patient care.
- For world peace....a constant and continuous prayer that will come to pass some how, some day. Where there is hope there is possibility.
- For people to come to understand what unconditional love truly is and give it freely without setting conditions on it.
- For all people to realize that everyone can learn something from others even if they are of different religions, different nationalities, different neighborhoods, different sexes, different sexual preferences, different colors, different customs, different everything. It's about what we can learn from one another to make each others lives better, Just because someone is "different" does not mean he or she does not have a wealth of wisdom from their personal life experiences, heritage, etc. than can prove to be a valuable resource in something in your personal life or struggles. If we at least show compassion to others who are as different to us as we are to them and open our minds and hearts to the possibilities not only can we learn new things that can help us get through this life but we will come closer to world wide Peace & understanding.
❤.•✯☃✯•.❤ May your life be filled with... Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ all encompassing Joy Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ, ♥ unconditional Love ♥ & ♪♪♪ the music of Laughter ♪♪♪! May you be blessed with good health, prosperity, & above all...a sense of gratitude for all the blessings in your life.❤.•✯☃✯•.❤
